I want to share my story of transformation with you, so you know its possible. It will also explain why I’m so confidant that I can help you do the same.
About 10 years ago I was just like you; feeling trapped and demoralized in a job-and a life-that was sucking me dry.
I was working at a high-end restaurant. I worked hard and I played hard. I was making CRAZY money and all my ducks were in a row.
But my soul was in a serious jam.
I didn’t really like what I was doing, even though I was great at it.
And the people I was spending most of my time with — my work colleagues — weren’t too inspiring either. They didn’t get me, and it was exhausting trying to fit in.
Eventually, I just stopped trying.
The worst part was that I felt trapped in this situation . I had bills to pay, I needed the money, and everyone told me that I would be crazy to leave such a high paying job.
So, I sucked it up and began to believe that this was just the way it had to be .
I was frustrated and uninspired. As a result I was pretty bitchy most of the time.
I found myself desperate for more fun and meaning in my life.
I spent a lot of time looking for something to make me feel better. I went out for drinks most nights and partied a lot. When I was home alone, I always had the TV or the computer on, sometimes both at the same time. I was trying to tune out that part of me that was crying out for something different.
Deep down inside I knew that my life could be different, that this couldn’t be ‘it’, but I was not sure exactly what ‘it’ was that I was looking for.
Strangely enough, I would catch a glimpse of it every now and then. I would come across a stranger who seemed “shiny” to me and they would have a special sparkle in their eyes. I could tell that their life did not suck.
All I knew was that I wanted some of what they had.
I had to break free of the frustrating, meaningless life I was living.
I wanted to like my job.
I wanted to enjoy my life and be inspired by it.
I wanted to stop hiding who I really was.
I felt like there was so much more in me, but I had NO IDEA how to access that.
I got to the point where it was no longer ‘OK’ to remain at a job that I hated and to be so unsatisfied by my life.I was fed up with feeling demoralized and my employer telling me I was lucky to have a job.
I started looking for a way out but didn’t feel like I had many options. I could use my Social Psych degree but how would I survive on entry level pay? I couldn’t bare the thought of another restaurant job! It would just be more of the same bullshit! I felt trapped!
I reached the point where I was about to snap!
I was getting sick a lot and feeling depressed. One day I loudly declared “I just need a break!” and that is exactly what I got. Later that day I was walking to my car, carrying some groceries, and I stumbled off the curb and had a big dramatic fall into the street, groceries flying everywhere. I broke my foot and severely sprained my ankle and was out of work for 6 weeks.
This accident made something clicked inside me and I knew something had to change. I couldn’t keep living like this.While I was on the mend I had lots of time on my hands to think about what my life had become. I read the book the Four Agreements and something shifted.
I realized that I could change things. I wasn’t a victim. I didn’t have to settle for a sucky life!
I had no idea how it was all going to work out, but I trusted that it would.
I embarked on the journey of re-discovering who I had become and who I wanted to be. I took a new job doing behavior modification with autistic kids and learned all about identifying cause and effect. It felt awesome to leave my old unsatisfying job behind!
The new job wasn’t the perfect fit for me but it got me headed in the right direction. Then I saw Dr. Phil on Oprah and new that I wanted to do what he did! I loved the way he helped people take responsibility for their lives and take effective actions to change the things that didn’t work for them. I did some research and discovered life coaching, but I wasn’t sure I could really make it happen.
I decided I needed to shake up my perspective so I set out to explore and experiment and try some things on for size. I did a lot of things I had never done before and went on some wild adventures. Then when I was at Burning Man something clicked and I decided to pursue what I was really interested in-Life Coaching! When I returned I signed up for a 2 year program at Coach U.
I also participated in the Priestess Path Apprenticeship and embraced my spiritual self. Between the Priestess Path and coaching school I cracked my head open and looked deep inside.
Those two years were all about self discovery and releasing that which didn’t serve me. I came out the other side a different person. I was centered, grounded and clear and nothing could stop me from creating the kick-ass life that I wanted to live.
My life transformation took years of earnest work and personal determination, but I can happily say that it was worth it.
My life fits me perfectly now. I live in a beautiful condo in Boston, Massachusetts. I’m surrounded by mermaids, play with my kitties, get to talk to clients from my mermaid corner, hang out with my amazing and talented friends, enjoy my sexy boyfriend, and find new and interesting things to expand my mind and heart each week. I am deeply satisfied in all aspects of my life. It all feels so luscious to me.
I’m a coach who loves her work, helping non-conforming souls, like you, identify the pre-packaged beliefs that stand in the way of your being fully self-expressed and living the luscious life you want to live.
I can help you, if you let me.
I’ve been there and I know what it takes to go from feeling trapped and demoralized to Kick-Ass!