I thought it was a good idea at the time.
I was so excited to make things happen and create some big changes so that I could make a giant leap forward and step more firmly into my kick-ass dream life.
What I didn’t consider was that the three programs I signed up for to help me do just that were all going on at the same time.
I realized that I had made myself crazy busy and I started to spiral into overwhelm.
I have put myself into full time SUMMER SCHOOL!
What was I thinking?
I can tell you what I was thinking: I want my kick-ass dream life to show up RIGHT NOW !
I was getting impatient and feeling like things were not happening fast enough.
How many of you can relate to that ?
So, I decided to take some action that I felt would rocket me forward.
The problem is that I didn’t take the time to create a structure to support me in doing this. I did not step back and imagine what it would be like to be in these programs, and the time commitment and the workload. I didn’t focus on the outcome that I was looking for and create space for it to happen. I didn’t clear away the things in my life that were not in alignment with my stepping up in this big new way.
I didn’t set myself up for success in anyway and now I am paying the price.
Funny, Abraham-Hicks sent out a quote the other day that fits perfectly.
“Overwhelment is about you not being up to speed with what you told the Universe that you want. The Universe is yielding to you. You’re just not ready to receive it right now.”
These words ring true for me. I was not ready to receive what I had asked for.
I ask myself: “What needs to be released, or brought in to support you in stepping into your dream?”
One thing that needs to be brought in is a newly defined commitment to do this work, and to make it my #1 priority.
The next thing I did was re-evaluate how I was spending my time and decide if there were any things that are not serving me. There are a few groups and projects that I have decided to let go of because they are not really going anywhere. I also had to redefine my relationship with Plants vs. Zombies, (Sorry guys…I will only be coming around every now and then.) and my TV.
I did make the commitment to keep some space for fun, and not to burn myself out working 12 hour days. That just does not feel good and is so NOT part of my kick-ass dream life!
So we will see what happens.
The Overwhelm has left the building and I am beginning to feel the juicy goodness of everything expanding around me.
Oh yeah… that feels nice!